Lust vs. long-term little desire

I don't quite remember when it first came to me. I just know that it's been with me for a very long time since I was a child. My long-term little desire. I've lived with it in the corner of my heart, and most of the time I forget it's always been there. I always know that I have the ability bring it into life sooner or later. It's just... I've never been sure at that future time if I'm still who I was and the flame is still there for it or not and if I'm too busy with my other matters that I have not the courage screwing up all of them for it or not. Desire is always there no matter you finish it or not...

I have this chance bring it into life, my long-term little desire. And at the same time, another lust is around the corner. The lust is much easier catching. And I have nothing to deal with in case I choose chasing the lust. I sooner will be back. I have no responsible with a lust. It's just for fun. And it's absolutely realistic.

My long-term little desire is also just for fun. I have nothing gaining chasing it but the satisfaction of chasing and catching a desire. And once chasing it, I have to screw up everything of the reality. It's just running after your desire as a cat runs after the sunshine.

My long-term little desire or a lust of a moment?

However, I know it's somehow not only a "battle" between lust and desire. It's the battle of "I" and "me".

Still have no idea for the nearby deadline.

Headache!!!